Hello blog.

So many things have happened this week, and to think I began it unprepared. I was caught offguard for a lot of things, but im glad I went ahead and tried out stuff like fencing and archery. It did me a lot of good. At least I don't feel so naked, without a cca and all. Been kept busy with the homework, readings, cca scouting and drama feste. Been such a messy, late-night week. Every morning I woke up dreary eyed and totally reluctant to face the outside world again, lest I get hurt once more. But alas! The heavens have been kind and its been a fun exciting time spent.

 

Some highlights wld include fencing. I think nash's blog covers the excitement I felt. Lucky thing I met him otherwise he might not have gone with me. And I wld not have had the guts to continue.

Anw the seniors were nice, and we were taught the basics and all that interesting stuff. To think once upon a time I didn't know a heck about fencing. Well now I do so yayy! Really engaging and a test of your reflexes and all. Im fascinated with the different swords- epee, foil, sabre. Just so intriguing. So on Friday I went with nash to fencing training and since we were late we joined in this vertical climb exercise at the stadium steps and along the way I kept saying hi cuz lots apple were from redcross. Can u imagine? Heck even the seniors- quite a few of them were frm redcross. So that was cool. Anw the coach named henry looked like an f4 wannabe but he was quite a cool chap. Did some exercises and played some games to test our en guarde, reflexes and forward backward movements. Real kewl. Cant get over fencing.

Anyhow, alan nash and I decided we'd try archery so we went for the clinic on wed and then got called down on Friday for trials. I thought I did mediocre though I clustered pretty alright. Anyhow, my fingers were dying from pulling back the bow string. And by the end of three sets my hand was trembling. GeeĦ­let's see how far I go with archery then. Oh yeah, saw some redcross seniors there too. And of course the pm's son though I don't think its fair we refer to him as the pm's son since he has his own life to live but hey he looks so alike! Sounds so alike! behaves so alike...ok enough!

Yeah. So I skipped CWC unfortunately on Thursday cuz of fencing clinic. Erm. On Friday we got our first scolding as a class. Joanne Lui claimed she wasn't amused that we switched off the light and locked the door to the classroom. she claimed she spent 15 mins walking around school looking and waiting for us. well, we were pretty shocked that she blew up. anyhow, she;s a nice woman somewhat reminds me of a big sister so yeah. speaking of teachers, edmund kwok is getting more and more interesting and hilarious. im not sure if he's doing it intentionally but heck i keep laughing. that day he called chengchai a darling my gawd the whole class was in fits i think ccc has kwok's eyes on him already. good luck man! haha

anyhow, ccc seemed quite pissed with me this week becuz i called him childish and sorta demeaned him in front of everyone else. well i cant say anything much but ive made my stand clear already and even apologized. i dont think my opinion is unfair. it IS after all, an opinion. so if u refuse to change so be it, then my opinion will not be altered. i guess it all boils down to respect. while u are accusing me of lambasting you unfairly with harsh comments, think abt what uve said too and respect my attempts to make things better by laughing them off. just because i laugh, it doesnt mean i dont mean what i say, or that im not serious. im trying to helo for pete's sake! so, dont begin to act like the victim, and make me look bad becuz honestly im too tired to give a damn. not anymore. there isnt much to be said. i am past those childish days. dont be so sensistive. just becuz i laugh, then u think were laughing at u. if u are so insecure abt ur own self, then go do smthing abt it stop trying to make us pity u.

but with that said in general, i understand where the anger comes from i just dont agree with the reaction. this calls for peace and a sensible argument does not require any hostile feedback thank you.

i am sick of the days when i cld quarrel with pple. i mean what the hell. now we are 16 yr old guys and frankly i dont approve of some ways some others operate. im beginning to think of myself more now. there's just no space for such childishness. if that's the only way we have fun then id rather not. nash, lets go for a movie someday but somehow when u suggested that i didnt know what to think. and jonK trust me im not trying to withhold ur cd from u haha. be cool! i will try to rmbr it.

erm, yeah. somehow ive said too much on aspects which i didnt wanna start on.
but well...

today shumin, shirin, uglen, sinni, and i represented our class as student helpers at the annual conference for feedback groups. quite an interesting day with stuff to take back. dr vivian was a really good speaker and a friendly guy. his responses were smart and the food was good, probably because a minister was around, as the saying goes. haha.
so after which we left the pan pacific hotel with shared memories and though it was only a little morning spent ushering and stuff im glad i have the experience to take along with me. cant wait for more of such stuff. aside from the fact that in makes me feel important it gives me the chance to have more exposure really. i enjoyed the company today thanks guys.

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so here i am blogging, probably for the last time.

indeed. i shall close down this blog for good. it shall remain as an artefact for pple to pry into the deepest depths of the archives. who knows what i'll rediscover with years to come.

i might change my mind. i dont know. maybe when i feel like writing another essay. another long meandering entry. it shall go here. but till then...it hasnt even been a year. sigh.

thanks to blogdrive for the memories recorded. i'll leave this the way it is now. each entry was a piece of me published for public scrutiny. some took me two hours. some took me weeks before i got my lazy fingers down on the keyboard. others were fleeting moments of spontaneity. whatever the case, those were good times. and now. to be continued, before the lunar new year begins, im actually just moving. haha! you can find me @
www.shuckeddy-mot.blogspot.com
i might regret and revert back after this since blogspot looks tiny with the words. and i love words. still, i must move on. i need the change. it wld kill me to stay put forever. i took the liberty of linking so many pple here. i dont have permission for all. if ure one of those, please dont mind me. the links are more for my own convenience. i will tell u when i meet u again. but for now, apologies. the new blog doesnt have links yet. shall work around them soon.

if this doesnt work i shall be so embarrassed. but hey! life is a cup of tea! so drink up, and we shall go...whee!

"i am the unthinkable,
the unthinkable tomato.
some people call me tom for short
others are people with messy lives
like bees in honeyed hives 
and they choose to call me otamot.
but wait, i am what i am not
for that, just call me mot."