2004 was a smashing year and i know it really meant a lot for me. So many changes and it was one year in which i really took time to sit back at watch time pass me by. And on many occasions I have lamented to myself and to others around me...abt how time flies....Time, that cruel maiden. She moves so fast and stops for no man. But hey, while she's at it let's take our time. 2005 is set to be a better year, especially after so many tragedies happening the year before. A quick recap would give us the Bird Flu epidemic, the Nicoll Highway incident, the death of the missing girl drama, and more recently the Tsunami trauma.
Well, with each year everyone wishes for each other to be happy but really we have to take things as they come. Before we know it 2005 would have come and gone as well, and we would be ushering in 2006. And of course it goes on. But mark my words. It always happens doesnt it? especially when u are enjoying yourself, you wish you had more time. SIgh.
Haha. I'm at it again. but well, dont nobody blame me now. each event, each milestone, each landmark in history will go down memory lane having a special place in someone's heart. I have many good ole memories from 2004, graduating year. but yeah, i finally realized to list them wouldnt even be enough to satisfy my hunger for some form of closure. it would be open, forever, till my memory fails me i guess, for me to look back and explore my younger years. thanks to all the people i have met last year, new friends, some, a few. and to those friendships i have so fortunately managed to secure and to strengthened, trust me, its invaluable. so thanks to the old friends too, many, some. for without the pple, there wld hardly be any experience. but experiences there were, too many, too precious. to name some big outings i had, which still get me tingled with excitement...MTV Asia Awards 2004, Mama Mia, European Flying Circus, Bond Classified Concert, Blue Best Of Concert etc. And may the heavens strike me if i said that other smaller scale domestic affairs were any less important. Just being a sec4, growing up in that short span of time, easing into the shoes of a senior, having learnt the ropes and passing it on, sharing the last few moments with friends at familiar hang out spots, be it in school, in orchard, that HMV store, that lido theatre, what have you. chatting by the corridor, laughing racuously in the canteen over a defeathered meal, gathering outside the staffrooms for the usual gossip or two, and hanging around...just waiting for life to get better. well thank you. those sweet sweet memoriesssss.....may i emphasize, with the multiple Ss, for someone once told me, that was last year already, that adding the multiple letters really help achieve this special unspoken effect. well, u know what, i agree. i didnt believe at first. but now i really know why. haha. so 2004, when i learnt to speak online like thissssss. of course, sec4 was more fun, but also more taxing. the studies started weighing in. reality check hit back home real hard. and was it i who slipped into a fit of depression? when nothing but Avril Lavigne or The Divine Comedy could soothe my aching soul. haha. those silly days. then the exams. gosh boy are we glad its over. ehh? i really dont know if i wld be able to do all that all over again. for that im proud of myself for surviving. for all that discipline that had to be factored in. and knowing my parents werent as strict with studies as before, i had to really wack myself hard to get cracking. boy was it not the year i missed the most television? yeah! sacrifices! and then that amazing rollercoaster ride of an experience, which i never imagined myself committing so deeply into...drama feste! the pple i met, the things i learnt, and just learning new stuff abt yourself and having a newfound confidence, coupled with the fun, thank you once again. thenn let's see, there were new teachers, like mark wee, whom i grew to understand better and like the whole class, like him after some time. like joycelene lim, whom we all immediately liked...lah! i rmbr how she reacted to the word cockroach. haha! and mrs yau! rather teresa, as she left the priceless quote from mother teresa herself. thanks to them man i loved all sciences this year :P and mr kwa! oh benedict kwa! something abt him u just cant hate! i can proudly say for four years i had four different math teachers haha, and sigh, all were great i guess. and and gosh almost forgot adding this on now mr jwong and tanph, who wldve tot they were such cool teachers after all....mr wong and his sarcastic smile, his extortion tactics for the minds carnival haha and mr tanph! always treating us and from the most scariest chi teacher after yongchaimay he became one of the best thanks to him for somehow i felt he tolerated my nonsense alot....now what else...
haha, i could honestly go on forever. but i mean...ok...winning that noticeboard competition again...for the class....i fell sick then i rmbr i didnt study for my first chem test of the year! i felt trashy it was smthing on metals haha! then when mrs yau announced the results i walked out on her cuz i feared the outcome....haha! attitude man! quite bashful abt that now...the things i did...mann. then erm arts @ atrium...oh man shld i even talk abt it haha....you will when you believe....i dont care man i had fun really!!! and nash i learnt a lot abt you from that experience. actually with that i shall thank alan and nash for being those two classmates for four years...you guys, though i cant stand sometimes and i get moody and i mean i totally flip u guys arnd sometimes u know like cuz im rather overbearing and melodramatic at times...u guys rock! just for being there! thanks....erm to others like glen and jared and huan kiat and ryan chow, i mean i guess i felt closer to u pple cuz u guys were more accessible...haha im not sure im using the correct word but heck...great pple with great hearts!!! and thats so cool...glen thanks you were always so friendly and smiley and spunky and jared haha i will always rmbr how u say "shen me" esp when we talk abt bryanfang (ok he aint reading this right...) haha and huankiat u werealways there...and ryan chow sorry for not going to ur concert in the end (but hey u got publicity on my blog haha) yeah but i will rmbr u for, lets see, being the person most bullied by everyone else? haha...jking...i guess my class rocked in the whole. i wldnt exchange it for anything. everyone really.
and and on top of alan and nash, i must thank these other special pple whom together make up our homely clan....yeah dudes we have stuck together like through stormy weather and stuff....so much so much weve been through....end at the end of it all we really rmbr the fun times spent together...thanks cheng chai, ryan su, zheng yi, jonK....u guys rock in your own way for being there and ccc there was always this special connection i feel we u know are usually on the same side of arguments and stuff ahah, always initiating stuff....we had so much fun right??? thanks for crystallizing the whole frenship with drama feste u taught me so much thank you thank you i am eternally grateful...and ryan su tho u are different in some ways and have been estranged and will be going separate ways i guess we will rmbr u fondly cuz u were just such a glow to be arnd with. the bright cheerful nature despite being too vulgar u were prob the funniest person ive ever known...and zee, wow just shoot me!!! yayyy im grateful we got to know each other better....can u imagine how in sec 1 we were quarelling during mdp haha and then in sec 2 we sorta got pissed at each other and this cold war started...my gawd who wldve thought a couple of years later and we're all good frens and taking the same bus back everyday, esp during the exams...the support...studying together...making those ss notes and meeting at ur house for history crash course with allen lye (allen thanks so much too u mean a lot to us take care we will see u soon rmbr that...) and ccc, haha. and jonK! jonKy jonky jonky...who wldve tot. u changed so much!!!! u prob wont be reading this...but well, i somehow always believed in you. i thank you for bringing back those laughter whenever we talk abt our previous project collaborations. ure the bomb man tt's why i call u to the movies always cuz somehow i cld connect with u on this level. haha. that day u followed me back to clementi and also when u and ccc gave me the bigfish dvd....i realized that wow...u know u pple are full of surprises too....THANKS for that! arghhhhh.....i dont wanna leave anyone out! but u know u pple rock!!!
and this year too, i found back some pri school friends!!! am so thankful for that. hello!!
and yeah...of course i got started blogging oh man look how far ive come like now a frequent blogger waaahhhh haha. ok im getting smug over nothing but well....look me! blogging was never abt making myself look gd in front of others...tho sometimes it feeds on u to impress readers...but heck really it has helped me vent my frustration and feelings and made me not feel so alone. i thank this blog tho its weird like im thanking an object...some virtual thingy but hey im really grateful....just dunno why this sudden rush of emotions makes me wanna thank every freakin thing.
gosh. wow wow wow.
yeah and i turned sixteen last year how cool was that! first nc16 movie meet the fockers by accident haha. didnt know!!! well it feels good to be old an yet still a teen....like wow...i will definitely cherish this....for youth's a stuff will not endure. yep twelfth night. the big Os come flooding back into my mind. but hey...i aint no afraid. i tried my best. and if any teacher ever taught me anything, i wld rmbr ms kelly for her big O lesson. she believed. and made me believe too. thanks.
i feel like im saying a gdbye speech but really it is isnt it? sort of. yeah so to erm mrs koh, to mrs doreen ang and ms heng...haha. speaking of ms heng! here wedding this year! i mean last year! 2004! june! yeah...a landmark...and ms kelly's party at cavendish. man...the year over like that. i rmbr i told glen, jared, ccc, zee and jonK on fri, "see you next year", when it was just next monday i meant...but man its true man its true ya know!!! oh yeah. i got my bags are packed im ready to go....so fast. a year distinguished by a stroke of the second hand. of the clock. or watch. or whatever. haha. whatever. thanks pple. thanks to myself. i have many new year resolutions.
no1. be nicer to others and to myself.
no2. exercise! like my parents are asking me to can u imagine...well i must...
no3. eat more! thats on top of exercising lest i remain a weakling. im skinny! skin and bones!
no4. learn to forgive and forget. its hard, but i know it feels good. its the best gift to yourself.
no5. to really really pay attention in class and be like ace student or smthing...for once. ahaha.yeah i shld be serious cuz i aint getting so lucky all the time.
no6. grow up. cut down on childish behaviour which im still full of. haha. but yeah, stay young at heart of course. wheeeee.
no6. learn to move on. not cry over spilt milk. whatever the odds are, be brave and not shy.
no7. be not nobody. wise words frm ms carlton.
no8. pick up two new skills. whatever they may be.
no9. start reading the papers and get acquainted with current affairs.
no10. take care of my health. like my eyes. musnt increase degree. if not damn i dont wanna rely on these specs no more man. if not i shall worsen my eyesight to 1000 than i can qualify for lasik. haha. nahhh....i plan to not fall sick that often too. which means no2 and no3 have to work first!
no11. read more to increase general knowledge and vocab command. im quite bad u know...

for now that's all. in a nutshell, be a better person. to myself and to others. very important. of course, to have as little regrets as possible! well, 2005, here i come!