i thank those who have brightened my lifewith surprises. be it a gift. be it an email. u know thanks.

all i want is the wind in my hair
to face the fear but not feel scared

thanks jonK and ccc, for the bigfish dvd. that was the bomb. i thank you for more than that even. just being so thoughtful meant so much to me. it showed me that anything i do for others is worth it. cuz now i know how they feel.
thanks shaun, i shouldve been more sensitive. but we move on, dont we?
thanks jonK again for the $50 cd deal. you rock for that haha. enjoy ur chem txtbk.
thanks ccc for sending me those christmas songs. i needed them.
thanks to jonK and ccc and nash for that outing we had. it brought back old memories, even when half of our group wasnt there, we had such fun. just sitting in the middle of time, sharing our fates. thanks for the phantom of the opera too. best movie this year.
thanks to more pple i guess. u know who u are. i guess.

i wanna run with the wild horses
run with the wild horses

and thanks to those wild horses.
for now im gone with the wind.

we shall see. where time takes us, friends, old friends, new friends... friends.

anyway, yesterday was PAE results and yep, got what i wanted i guess. now if the heavens are kind they would not just leave me hanging like that. without confirmation on the humanities scholarship, the results are rather inconclusive for me. i went back to school to check. met up with jonK and chengchai. ok fine, i was late again. but i would rather blame it on the bus. it wld be the same bus that caused me to reach home a little after seven the same day. i almost missed the taping....arghhh.
anw, after checking we went up to the gryphon's lair and played table tennis from 11-1230 . jonK as usual was not participative, but instead huddled up on a black leather sofa, and immersed himself with agatha christie. it was great liberation playing a serious one on one game. it was funny when we kept deucing while jonK complained abt not having lunch yet. mwhahaha. and we just kept right on playing. later we were joined by this buckley guy who took on chengchai. wasnt really watching. we had lunch at macs thereafter. finally ate the much publicized grilled chicken foldover. "a healthier choice" said jonathan, who was quick to take the first juicy munch. i would describe it as, crispy, saucy, and tender. yummy actually. after that we went up to Sembawang cuz i wanted to buy bonnie mckee's trouble but alas! the rare talent that she is...she wasnt to be found. i looked around for a long time and almost settled for Blue's Greatest Hits, but later changed my mind. I bought S Club instead! yeahh. i know its kinda late to support them now but hey i alwasy wanted to just that i never got the chance. so i finally got it. been listening to it ever since non stop. real feel good music. why oh why did they ever split up? :( later jonK left and ccc and i decided to go back to the library to fulfil our contractual duties...well, not really contractual but we were morally obliged to do CIP for cheryl. its long overdue...ever since our sec3 mdp/DI days. but guess what ms mani wasnt there so mwhahaha we reverted to our table tennis match. bang. smash. poof. pow. wow. kik. clok. it was real crazy cuz we just kept playing and playing from 230-615. after that i was aching all over. but real fun. thanks to ccc for that exciting faceoff. i guess we're quite ready to defeat alan and nash...up,up and away!

so that made me late to tape happy fish for my mum. my parents are incidentally in genting. so that left me all alone. and alone. the whole night. mwhahaha. freedom actually. like u can really do anything at free will w/o anyone asking you why, telling you not to. that sorta stuff. i decided to start painting those ceramic pots outside my front door. at first it was alright. cool going. then my colour sense got extremely warped and it was heading in the direction of a beautiful disaster. literally. but guess what YAYY i finally finished. one. one lonely but rather perfect piece. mwhahaha. ok not perfect. but its colourful. very cheerful vibes you get by just looking at it. i guess i was influenced by SClub. yeah. i like the way they sing it. Eee--aa---sss Club....

now im starting on another one. what to do what to do. i better not screw this up...painting is actually quite fun. i dont think many pple actually do this kinda stuff in their free time but to mix with the colours and put your own creativity down into something to call your own masterpiece i think thats extremely rewarding... ...

hmm the past few days have been rewarding in their own way. went to cavendish. the next day some of them had to make the same trip back to the west cuz i invited them to my house!!! i was lazy so i made them take a bus by themselves. mwhahaha. we didnt really do much did we? i guess jonK got his fair share of the computer by visiting reality news online and playing games on cartoon network (ermmm....nvm), nash alan myself and ccc played cards for a while. zee graced the piano. waasnt long before alan ccc and i went down for badminton. jonK was last seen watching Top Fun on ch8 (ermmm....nvm) while nash and zee...engrossed with KOF. so anw the badminton sparring was cool. after that we went back and realized we had to go for lunch. we walked two blocks to jelita and decided to settle for pizza hut. we ended up ordering the hut fiesta which promised to feed six pple. jus right! xcept for ccc of course. consensus was that he was only permitted to the pepsi. yummy meal i must say. i guess i like anything pasta-ish and pizza-ish. and anything with tomato! and pineapples! and bread! and mushroom! slurpp! but all that food meant each person paid $13/-. yes for that one meal alone. how disgusting the price. but worth it i guess, considering we got an extra share.

by the time we walked back again there was not much time left. zee and i took to the piano with some old ch8 theme songs and aguilera's stripped scorebook. yayy so i got to sing at last. ccc and alan by then, deperate for a game of tt, had transformed the small rosewood in my living room into a table tennis table. kinda funny how they both squatted down and made miniature movements in a bid to keep the ball from straying. it was then that nash was blogging on my computer. haha. then jonK...hmmm what was he doing? (ermmm......nvm)

we all didnt want to leave cuz we were juz beginning to settle in all over again but we really had a circus show to catch. i had six tickets but alan was so reluctant to go we ended up getting glen instead. so we took a train down to the other side of the island aka EW1 aka PasirRis.  we saw this guy reading a binded book which read "GEP Literature...Twelfth Night...". mwhahahaha. in typical fashion we boasted our shakespearean lingo by spouting quotes, fresh from the memory of those mugging nights. well for me there were only two nights so obviously i cldnt quote as well aahhaa. but i think we irritated that guy a little.....hmmm....YAYY.

when we were reaching we met glen on the train. haha. went to the library for a while. then went to dinner. zee went off to buy his book. he later returned to join us at the foodcourt. i wasnt quite hungry, and still recovering from the afternoon fiesta spread, so i settled for tausuan. mmmmm...that has gotta be my favourite oriental dessert of all time. its just simple and the gooey-ness makes it sweet and yummylicious. add the you tiao and there's no denying the irresistible combination of crisp and saccharine.

we took a bus to downtown east and were a bit apprehensive before entering D'Marquee. we saw mostly little kids entering and it seemed as though they were attending the sesame street concert, of which posters were all around. in the end it turned out to be just a small humble affair. i bought this cool boomerang before the show started. a man was demonstrating it it was just so cool....after the show we tried it out on the field and after hitting so many innocent passersby, some of us got the hang of it...of course nash mastered the skill perfectly....we must try it out again!!

so anw the circus was rather entertaining. i was expecting Alegria and Saltimbanco but got something more down to earth. there wasnt much 'flying' as suggested by its show title (unless you count the doves...haha ok lame i know thanks very much) but instead more showy acrobatic tricks. there was also this ridiculous russian woman in pink. she had thick glasses, a long prosthetic nose, coupled by two pink breast cones. haha. she was somewhat the clown. but she was also a skilful ventriloquist. instead of puppets she used an audience member for her segment. interesting....then there was also this bushy haired woman who was the main acrobat...damn zai. the whip woman was also captivating to watch cuz she could swipe off a rose or a microphone or even a cigarette butt from someone's hand from 1 feet away. really really cool. one of the best stunt wld have to be the nursery school one. where two guys(upsidedown) had to balance two girls with their feet....tossing and turning while they somersaulted. so on the whole it was really an eyeopener for me. i hoped it was fun for everyone else. afterall that was part of my house visit haha.
oh well, so that was my day for that day. tired after all the fun.

now im finding more stuff to do. before the holidays end. the sooner christmas comes, we know its near. when new year arrives, we know its nearer. enjoy what time we have left i say!

p.s. been snooping around and up and coming movies are just supercoooll...there's lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events, elektra, fantastic four, closer, ms congeniality 2...ahaha. but thats mostly next year. what has made 2004 a special year? so many things. im just trying to recall. sigh....

it really feels otherwise. i know i have fantastic people accompanying me on this journey of life but then again, i just feel alone, stark naked in the face of destiny. after all everyone is different and has different experiences. even the same experience is perceived differently so who are we to say we are not essentially alone? when the world closes in and ends its tenure, oh my god. this is madness.

my boo

anyway here's the deal
im doing a wordy rapping hood
come join me fellas
dont be shy (be good)
in your acapellas
hear me cry

why oh why

so have you heard the buzz
the craze and fuzz
taufik batisah
idol bonanza
cool banana

lalala

yeah and people of the world unite
today its AIDs day, so put up the fight