Hello blog.

So many things have happened this week, and to think I began it unprepared. I was caught offguard for a lot of things, but im glad I went ahead and tried out stuff like fencing and archery. It did me a lot of good. At least I don't feel so naked, without a cca and all. Been kept busy with the homework, readings, cca scouting and drama feste. Been such a messy, late-night week. Every morning I woke up dreary eyed and totally reluctant to face the outside world again, lest I get hurt once more. But alas! The heavens have been kind and its been a fun exciting time spent.

 

Some highlights wld include fencing. I think nash's blog covers the excitement I felt. Lucky thing I met him otherwise he might not have gone with me. And I wld not have had the guts to continue.

Anw the seniors were nice, and we were taught the basics and all that interesting stuff. To think once upon a time I didn't know a heck about fencing. Well now I do so yayy! Really engaging and a test of your reflexes and all. Im fascinated with the different swords- epee, foil, sabre. Just so intriguing. So on Friday I went with nash to fencing training and since we were late we joined in this vertical climb exercise at the stadium steps and along the way I kept saying hi cuz lots apple were from redcross. Can u imagine? Heck even the seniors- quite a few of them were frm redcross. So that was cool. Anw the coach named henry looked like an f4 wannabe but he was quite a cool chap. Did some exercises and played some games to test our en guarde, reflexes and forward backward movements. Real kewl. Cant get over fencing.

Anyhow, alan nash and I decided we'd try archery so we went for the clinic on wed and then got called down on Friday for trials. I thought I did mediocre though I clustered pretty alright. Anyhow, my fingers were dying from pulling back the bow string. And by the end of three sets my hand was trembling. Gee¡­let's see how far I go with archery then. Oh yeah, saw some redcross seniors there too. And of course the pm's son though I don't think its fair we refer to him as the pm's son since he has his own life to live but hey he looks so alike! Sounds so alike! behaves so alike...ok enough!

Yeah. So I skipped CWC unfortunately on Thursday cuz of fencing clinic. Erm. On Friday we got our first scolding as a class. Joanne Lui claimed she wasn't amused that we switched off the light and locked the door to the classroom. she claimed she spent 15 mins walking around school looking and waiting for us. well, we were pretty shocked that she blew up. anyhow, she;s a nice woman somewhat reminds me of a big sister so yeah. speaking of teachers, edmund kwok is getting more and more interesting and hilarious. im not sure if he's doing it intentionally but heck i keep laughing. that day he called chengchai a darling my gawd the whole class was in fits i think ccc has kwok's eyes on him already. good luck man! haha

anyhow, ccc seemed quite pissed with me this week becuz i called him childish and sorta demeaned him in front of everyone else. well i cant say anything much but ive made my stand clear already and even apologized. i dont think my opinion is unfair. it IS after all, an opinion. so if u refuse to change so be it, then my opinion will not be altered. i guess it all boils down to respect. while u are accusing me of lambasting you unfairly with harsh comments, think abt what uve said too and respect my attempts to make things better by laughing them off. just because i laugh, it doesnt mean i dont mean what i say, or that im not serious. im trying to helo for pete's sake! so, dont begin to act like the victim, and make me look bad becuz honestly im too tired to give a damn. not anymore. there isnt much to be said. i am past those childish days. dont be so sensistive. just becuz i laugh, then u think were laughing at u. if u are so insecure abt ur own self, then go do smthing abt it stop trying to make us pity u.

but with that said in general, i understand where the anger comes from i just dont agree with the reaction. this calls for peace and a sensible argument does not require any hostile feedback thank you.

i am sick of the days when i cld quarrel with pple. i mean what the hell. now we are 16 yr old guys and frankly i dont approve of some ways some others operate. im beginning to think of myself more now. there's just no space for such childishness. if that's the only way we have fun then id rather not. nash, lets go for a movie someday but somehow when u suggested that i didnt know what to think. and jonK trust me im not trying to withhold ur cd from u haha. be cool! i will try to rmbr it.

erm, yeah. somehow ive said too much on aspects which i didnt wanna start on.
but well...

today shumin, shirin, uglen, sinni, and i represented our class as student helpers at the annual conference for feedback groups. quite an interesting day with stuff to take back. dr vivian was a really good speaker and a friendly guy. his responses were smart and the food was good, probably because a minister was around, as the saying goes. haha.
so after which we left the pan pacific hotel with shared memories and though it was only a little morning spent ushering and stuff im glad i have the experience to take along with me. cant wait for more of such stuff. aside from the fact that in makes me feel important it gives me the chance to have more exposure really. i enjoyed the company today thanks guys.

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so here i am blogging, probably for the last time.

indeed. i shall close down this blog for good. it shall remain as an artefact for pple to pry into the deepest depths of the archives. who knows what i'll rediscover with years to come.

i might change my mind. i dont know. maybe when i feel like writing another essay. another long meandering entry. it shall go here. but till then...it hasnt even been a year. sigh.

thanks to blogdrive for the memories recorded. i'll leave this the way it is now. each entry was a piece of me published for public scrutiny. some took me two hours. some took me weeks before i got my lazy fingers down on the keyboard. others were fleeting moments of spontaneity. whatever the case, those were good times. and now. to be continued, before the lunar new year begins, im actually just moving. haha! you can find me @
www.shuckeddy-mot.blogspot.com
i might regret and revert back after this since blogspot looks tiny with the words. and i love words. still, i must move on. i need the change. it wld kill me to stay put forever. i took the liberty of linking so many pple here. i dont have permission for all. if ure one of those, please dont mind me. the links are more for my own convenience. i will tell u when i meet u again. but for now, apologies. the new blog doesnt have links yet. shall work around them soon.

if this doesnt work i shall be so embarrassed. but hey! life is a cup of tea! so drink up, and we shall go...whee!

"i am the unthinkable,
the unthinkable tomato.
some people call me tom for short
others are people with messy lives
like bees in honeyed hives 
and they choose to call me otamot.
but wait, i am what i am not
for that, just call me mot."

p.s. they never seem to get to us, those chorale pple. the wait is torturing. for that, i wish i get it as well as benjamin and ryan chow and ivee. we all worked so hard esp those three previous choir members. sigh how?
p.s. humans party was fun! sort of. didnt really mix around well. wish i cldve talked to the teachers. erm, talked to bridget though its weird cuz i dont really know her but she was rather amah, as glen and nash said. she gave me that look when i mentioned jonathan kang. that look...anyhow it was fun the time spent before that. 1a01a went for lunch at mos burger and talked lotsa crap until we hadta return to school. erm. some of use went to library others went to cca and stuff. i wasted my time in the library. then wasted my time crashing on CWC. gained some knowledge on HPF. met another person called Sean. there are so many seans/shauns/shawns...its getting on my nerves. i could make a list of seans/shawns/shauns i know. uncountable i say. anyway, didnt do much the fun part was watching the jazz club auditions. seeing pple like RSD was one of the main higlights. i really hope shumin makes it her voice is perfection in sound. good luck to kevin and ivee and terence and jermyn and nash too...dont think i missed anyone out lets now hooe i dont screw up on tuesday. its been a fun week. btw the nuggets were cold by the time we took taxi to bayshore. btw that place is posh ok. unbelievable. i wld love to have a pool like that. a lobby like that. wowwww...we ate lotsa pizzas. unhealthy food. played some nice games. actually didnt do much. just that we had a heartwarming time trying to bond. i guess these things take time. but im real glad my class and OG and growing closer and not further apart. thanks to everyone in them for making such magic happen.
took a taxi home with jean. now i have to settle payments. so so tired. i slept in my uniform that night. happy hari raya haji, belated everyone!
goodness me. now nash has a new blog but its not ready. haha. i have one too. not ready too.

orientation was fun. period. there are no words to describe it. alright, i admit im just lazy cuz ive lost all the prim details to embellish my entry here but really i couldnt imagine life in rj without having orientation. the funnest 5 days in so long. really well spent. we met new pple, bonded as OGs and played lotsa fun games and danced and sang and basically had a fantabulous time. i guess the memories will remain in our minds but on the other hand i really really really regret not having done a day by day recap or week by week report on the happenings. really lost so much there. when u dont write something down u forget abt it and then when u do rmbr u realize that along with that precious bit that came sneeking back, there's a whole lot more treasure waiting to be rediscovered. well, with that said, i cannot undo anything i only wish i could turn back time and relive the spirit of k'predorus once again. invigorating and action packed i must say. i enjoyed every single moment of it, from the stoning to the goldmember/free styler shazea dance to Onite the big night wow wow wow wow wow...unimaginable magic happening. i actually experienced something so refreshing it brought me out of the past and returned me to what's really important- the present. and yes that was the orientation theme, basically abt the past, present and future. i found it greatly symbolic of what i was going through. meant so much to me. everything was retro
verses future and the hype and synergy was simply amazing. whoo! those memories....ahhhh the new faces and awkward moments, rediscovering yourself in the process, how priceless is that? gosh gosh gosh im gahh-ing over the trance i was in but yeah hafta face it things happen and pass and before we knew it orientation was over. sigh. its ok, the smashing thing is knowing we have the whole JC life ahead of us to embrace. like in sec 4 i was real soppy and all abt having to leave behind all those well spent years....the delicious years haha even now when i speak of it or think of it i miss it but yeah, knowing that now we're really like sec 1s, at the start of a new phase...its really inspiring u know. the phrase and mindset of "carpe diem!" means so much now. there's really so much to take in to inhale its coming so fast we cant breathe but we love it. well at least i do. im using the victorian WE. :) it feels good to be in good company. the people are fun and hopefully we will all become good friends and have lasting friendships and all...a new beginning, out of the blue like delta goodrem once sang...WOW the ccas to join the lectures and tutorials and homework to do for us humans students essays to complete and books to read and stuff to appreciate around us. elite man. shhhweeet! like a sugary donut with blueberry yumm yumms dripping from the golden brown rims....perfection...yeah! that's it. perfect, like a blank piece of canvas. and now we're the artists waiting to do a new masterpiece all over again. what we gonna do? which colours? which brush? what? why? whatever for? u know...that feeling that u get to redeem yourself. you get to try out new stuff and experiment with new ideas and take the path less travelled by. woohooo. mental orgasm!

so im full of anticipation im quite sure everyone else is too. all i hope for is that we do not become jaded. the pple here are mostly enthu and extroverted! cool! even if they're not, they're realy nice pple im sure. i dont care abt how i viewed certain others last time cuz now im really different in my thinking. im giving others a chance so hopefully i get a chance to. to start anew in everyone's minds. im so thankful things have worked out this way. in this i have no particular faith to turn to but i do know inside my heart some force i believe in, the force that makes things happen for a reason and so far the reasons are good and really kind to me and all i love so thanks for all these thanks so much i am just HIGH.

so many things have happened erm i really really cannot summarize it haha cuz as i type i am correcting typos then looking at the clock cuz i wanna sleep....another long day tomorrow. aaaaa. but hey, im gonna try :) right now life i beautiful i dont wanna screw it up. i forsee downs but if we dont cherish the ups there isnt anything to look forward to then...
erm. alright. orientation. metano'ia! you guys RAWK. period okay. erm lemme try to name all of you. kevin, ivee, bryant, nicholas, weijie, michelle koo, inka, michelle low, chuan yue, shang, zhi perng (hale), yii wen, zhao jing, zhao ke, li zhan, de hui, qiao qi, yiling, dawnie, soon hock, weiping and myself i hope i didnt forget anyone this is so sucky if i do but really if i did its becuase i was thinking of you ahaha. oh well. thanks u ppeps for the good times shared. do always always return to the cosy k'cove and never forget how we all had a change of heart. keep the k'lam going! and as for Alves! you go dude! alves rocked big time im sorry but xdfy wasnt cool enough haha....right or not retro....................

bla bla bla maybe i will fill this place in with more stuff some other time but its highly unlikely but tilll then i cherish those classic OG moments spent together. the disastrous k'floo decoration, the untangling game, the grand slams we had, our metano'ia and kick ass cheers, erm our times at dinner, the amazing race (it was more bonding than a race really), the tsunami fund raising day (yayy zhiperng and i probably raised the most thats smthing to be proud of totally cool!)...and O night, buying the cloth at Spotlight ahaha so glad i went along even tho i was tired or i wldve missed out on all those fun stuff. yeah...and bertram and shihui my my dont u two make a lovely couple...ahaha ok fine i shall be quiet but well...u two make a great OGL duo thanks for making metano'ia so spirited. i only hope we can go out more often and bond more tightly. try to break to cliques hopefully. just thankful for all of u guys....

okkk. so i really miss my OG but my class rawks too! 1A01A! i was always on the fence abt sci or humans and thank god i got the scholarship (hopefully it lasts) so glad i take humans the teachers are great the pple are fun and we want breakfast so we rawk and you dont and u lose wwe win ahaha ok im going hyper sniper but yeah this is showtime! hopefully things work out. i wanna be as successful as anyone can possibly be in life i really wanna :) ok why did i just say that? insecurities of taking arts maybe but heck its FUN. and yeah its the road less travelled by so i dont mind at least i made a choice. hopefully my results for Os show me worthy of continuing here. i dont even guarantee myself a place in rj forever (fingers crossed may the heavens bless all of us pleaseeeee). was talking to mrs koh today sigh really miss her and all the other teachers i hope they dont forget us...miss ri...so near yet so far...

ok. silas marner. othello. french revolution. fiscal policy. inequalities. just some of the stuff coming up in our lives. im glad more pple are opening up this is so great- the feeling that ur enthusiasm is being reciprocated ahaha. yeap. week 1 orientation. week 2 slack lectures and crashings...week 3 which is now erm starting on heavy lesson layouts but still loving every single moment of it...yayyy. christine warned me that my drive for enthusiasm must not come from my fear of regret. well...i dunno. maybe it is. but im surely trying to avoid that. at least i know im conscious. so this is cool. and yeah. sorry for the loyal taggers for not updating ahaha. ok play along with me im a super star yeah? so all u fans...thank you so much for believing in me...finally- a golden globe!!! ahaha. finally. a golden globe which i cld appreciate fully. wish i cld watch all the shows in there love them...what milllion dollar baby, hotel rwanda, finding neverland, closer, the aviator, iron jawed angels, sideways etc. etc. lalala ccc reminded me of the show life is beautiful damn i love that show its the most BEAUTIFUL show on earth. nothing can match its beauty. miss it. love life. lets all love life for what its worth!

i think the tsunami of events from the past few weeks has stopped and awaits my continuity. the tsunami of the human spirit someone once said in response to the tragedy. indeed. now my life has stopped here when i look back on all those times and recall them from not too long ago. now i move on from here. finally. fulfilled obligation of blogging. hahaha. yep. we're all having fun. the science guys are cool. sorry once again to jonK. my fault. but we're cool now i hope? erm, alan yayy. i dunno. im just saying yayy. u seem much approachable now. maybe its the girls....(ok i didnt say anything...but i gather is true...u just attract them lah) and yeah i went for chorale auditions still awaiting results. drama feste auditions was a crazy experience but kinda expected it at the same time ahaha. nash, dont ever be depressed again. its not worth it. take it from me. i hope u and also junyi find the strength to see what;s really impt- thats yourself. go for yourself. yeap. so drama feste seems fun doesnt it. lalala. why do i keep saying this. lalala. wonder when it all started anyway. hmmm. aha i havent forgotten! ok i dunno.

yeah lotsa good songs around nowadays. and now im kinda done i really wanna sleep now that the mojo is back so to speak i guess im back in business. tv is kicking of into hot season too with apprentice, charmed, american idol, amazing race all splashing down on us. lalala. and now im a freak for movies. ccc! u better organize a movie screening at ur house or smthing...those precious flicks. ok that sounded porn or smthing. but NO! i shall only watch nice innocent shows. really, whats the point of corrupting the mind? well, im in no position to speak, says both the angel and devil in me. i have sinned says my soul. and my heart says yes, i have sinned. but to myself i say, i will change. mark my WORDS.

ok...erm delirious as u can see...shall leave with this thought provoking story i found at some other blog. before i get sued. i give the copyright owner any right to warn me before persecuting me. ok. this is good for sharing. im for no side. im a free thinker. so take what u make of it :) gdnite.


"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ." The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?

"Yes sir," the student says.

"So you believe in God?"

"Absolutely."

"Is God good?"

"Sure! God's good."

"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"

"Yes."

"Are you good or evil?"

"The Bible says I'm evil."

The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment.
"Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?"

"Yes sir, I would."

"So you're good...!"

"I wouldn't say that."

"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could.Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't."

The student does not answer, so the professor continues.

"He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, eventhough he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"

The student remains silent."No, you can't, can you?" the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

"Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?"

"Er...yes," the student says.

"Is Satan good?"The student doesn't hesitate on this one.

"No."

"Then where does Satan come from?"

The student falters. "From...God..."

"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in thisworld?"

"Yes, sir."

"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?"

"Yes."

"So who created evil?"

Again, the student has no answer.

"Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness. All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?"

The student squirms on his feet.

"Yes."

"So who created them?"

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.

"Who created them?"

There is still no answer.
Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. Theclass is mesmerized.

"Tell me," he continues onto another student. "Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?"

The student's voice betrays him and cracks. "Yes, professor. I do."

The old man stops pacing. "Science says you have five senses you use toidentify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?"

"No sir. I've never seen Him."

"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?"

"No, sir. I have not."

"Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Haveyou ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter."

"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."

"Yet you still believe in him?"

"Yes."

"According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, sciencesays your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?"

"Nothing," the student replies. "I only have my faith."

"Yes, faith," the professor repeats. "And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith."

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of His own."Professor, is there such thing as heat?"

"Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat."

"And is there such a thing as cold?"

"Yes, son, there's cold too."

"No sir, there isn't."

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The roomsuddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

"You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, whiteheat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than -458 degrees. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it."

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

"What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?"

"Yes," the professor replies without hesitation. "What is night if it isn'tdarkness?"

"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light.. but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?"

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester.

"So what point are you making, young man?"

"Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to startwith and so your conclusion must also be flawed."

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. "Flawed? Can you explain how?"

"You are working on the premise of duality," the student explains. "You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it."

"Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved froma monkey?"

"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, ofcourse I do."

"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going.A very good semester indeed.

"Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?"The class is in uproar.

The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

"To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean."The student looks around the room. "Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?" The class breaks out into laughter. "Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?"

Now the room is silent.

The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. "I guess you'll have to take them on faith."

2004 was a smashing year and i know it really meant a lot for me. So many changes and it was one year in which i really took time to sit back at watch time pass me by. And on many occasions I have lamented to myself and to others around me...abt how time flies....Time, that cruel maiden. She moves so fast and stops for no man. But hey, while she's at it let's take our time. 2005 is set to be a better year, especially after so many tragedies happening the year before. A quick recap would give us the Bird Flu epidemic, the Nicoll Highway incident, the death of the missing girl drama, and more recently the Tsunami trauma.
Well, with each year everyone wishes for each other to be happy but really we have to take things as they come. Before we know it 2005 would have come and gone as well, and we would be ushering in 2006. And of course it goes on. But mark my words. It always happens doesnt it? especially when u are enjoying yourself, you wish you had more time. SIgh.
Haha. I'm at it again. but well, dont nobody blame me now. each event, each milestone, each landmark in history will go down memory lane having a special place in someone's heart. I have many good ole memories from 2004, graduating year. but yeah, i finally realized to list them wouldnt even be enough to satisfy my hunger for some form of closure. it would be open, forever, till my memory fails me i guess, for me to look back and explore my younger years. thanks to all the people i have met last year, new friends, some, a few. and to those friendships i have so fortunately managed to secure and to strengthened, trust me, its invaluable. so thanks to the old friends too, many, some. for without the pple, there wld hardly be any experience. but experiences there were, too many, too precious. to name some big outings i had, which still get me tingled with excitement...MTV Asia Awards 2004, Mama Mia, European Flying Circus, Bond Classified Concert, Blue Best Of Concert etc. And may the heavens strike me if i said that other smaller scale domestic affairs were any less important. Just being a sec4, growing up in that short span of time, easing into the shoes of a senior, having learnt the ropes and passing it on, sharing the last few moments with friends at familiar hang out spots, be it in school, in orchard, that HMV store, that lido theatre, what have you. chatting by the corridor, laughing racuously in the canteen over a defeathered meal, gathering outside the staffrooms for the usual gossip or two, and hanging around...just waiting for life to get better. well thank you. those sweet sweet memoriesssss.....may i emphasize, with the multiple Ss, for someone once told me, that was last year already, that adding the multiple letters really help achieve this special unspoken effect. well, u know what, i agree. i didnt believe at first. but now i really know why. haha. so 2004, when i learnt to speak online like thissssss. of course, sec4 was more fun, but also more taxing. the studies started weighing in. reality check hit back home real hard. and was it i who slipped into a fit of depression? when nothing but Avril Lavigne or The Divine Comedy could soothe my aching soul. haha. those silly days. then the exams. gosh boy are we glad its over. ehh? i really dont know if i wld be able to do all that all over again. for that im proud of myself for surviving. for all that discipline that had to be factored in. and knowing my parents werent as strict with studies as before, i had to really wack myself hard to get cracking. boy was it not the year i missed the most television? yeah! sacrifices! and then that amazing rollercoaster ride of an experience, which i never imagined myself committing so deeply into...drama feste! the pple i met, the things i learnt, and just learning new stuff abt yourself and having a newfound confidence, coupled with the fun, thank you once again. thenn let's see, there were new teachers, like mark wee, whom i grew to understand better and like the whole class, like him after some time. like joycelene lim, whom we all immediately liked...lah! i rmbr how she reacted to the word cockroach. haha! and mrs yau! rather teresa, as she left the priceless quote from mother teresa herself. thanks to them man i loved all sciences this year :P and mr kwa! oh benedict kwa! something abt him u just cant hate! i can proudly say for four years i had four different math teachers haha, and sigh, all were great i guess. and and gosh almost forgot adding this on now mr jwong and tanph, who wldve tot they were such cool teachers after all....mr wong and his sarcastic smile, his extortion tactics for the minds carnival haha and mr tanph! always treating us and from the most scariest chi teacher after yongchaimay he became one of the best thanks to him for somehow i felt he tolerated my nonsense alot....now what else...
haha, i could honestly go on forever. but i mean...ok...winning that noticeboard competition again...for the class....i fell sick then i rmbr i didnt study for my first chem test of the year! i felt trashy it was smthing on metals haha! then when mrs yau announced the results i walked out on her cuz i feared the outcome....haha! attitude man! quite bashful abt that now...the things i did...mann. then erm arts @ atrium...oh man shld i even talk abt it haha....you will when you believe....i dont care man i had fun really!!! and nash i learnt a lot abt you from that experience. actually with that i shall thank alan and nash for being those two classmates for four years...you guys, though i cant stand sometimes and i get moody and i mean i totally flip u guys arnd sometimes u know like cuz im rather overbearing and melodramatic at times...u guys rock! just for being there! thanks....erm to others like glen and jared and huan kiat and ryan chow, i mean i guess i felt closer to u pple cuz u guys were more accessible...haha im not sure im using the correct word but heck...great pple with great hearts!!! and thats so cool...glen thanks you were always so friendly and smiley and spunky and jared haha i will always rmbr how u say "shen me" esp when we talk abt bryanfang (ok he aint reading this right...) haha and huankiat u werealways there...and ryan chow sorry for not going to ur concert in the end (but hey u got publicity on my blog haha) yeah but i will rmbr u for, lets see, being the person most bullied by everyone else? haha...jking...i guess my class rocked in the whole. i wldnt exchange it for anything. everyone really.
and and on top of alan and nash, i must thank these other special pple whom together make up our homely clan....yeah dudes we have stuck together like through stormy weather and stuff....so much so much weve been through....end at the end of it all we really rmbr the fun times spent together...thanks cheng chai, ryan su, zheng yi, jonK....u guys rock in your own way for being there and ccc there was always this special connection i feel we u know are usually on the same side of arguments and stuff ahah, always initiating stuff....we had so much fun right??? thanks for crystallizing the whole frenship with drama feste u taught me so much thank you thank you i am eternally grateful...and ryan su tho u are different in some ways and have been estranged and will be going separate ways i guess we will rmbr u fondly cuz u were just such a glow to be arnd with. the bright cheerful nature despite being too vulgar u were prob the funniest person ive ever known...and zee, wow just shoot me!!! yayyy im grateful we got to know each other better....can u imagine how in sec 1 we were quarelling during mdp haha and then in sec 2 we sorta got pissed at each other and this cold war started...my gawd who wldve thought a couple of years later and we're all good frens and taking the same bus back everyday, esp during the exams...the support...studying together...making those ss notes and meeting at ur house for history crash course with allen lye (allen thanks so much too u mean a lot to us take care we will see u soon rmbr that...) and ccc, haha. and jonK! jonKy jonky jonky...who wldve tot. u changed so much!!!! u prob wont be reading this...but well, i somehow always believed in you. i thank you for bringing back those laughter whenever we talk abt our previous project collaborations. ure the bomb man tt's why i call u to the movies always cuz somehow i cld connect with u on this level. haha. that day u followed me back to clementi and also when u and ccc gave me the bigfish dvd....i realized that wow...u know u pple are full of surprises too....THANKS for that! arghhhhh.....i dont wanna leave anyone out! but u know u pple rock!!!
and this year too, i found back some pri school friends!!! am so thankful for that. hello!!
and yeah...of course i got started blogging oh man look how far ive come like now a frequent blogger waaahhhh haha. ok im getting smug over nothing but well....look me! blogging was never abt making myself look gd in front of others...tho sometimes it feeds on u to impress readers...but heck really it has helped me vent my frustration and feelings and made me not feel so alone. i thank this blog tho its weird like im thanking an object...some virtual thingy but hey im really grateful....just dunno why this sudden rush of emotions makes me wanna thank every freakin thing.
gosh. wow wow wow.
yeah and i turned sixteen last year how cool was that! first nc16 movie meet the fockers by accident haha. didnt know!!! well it feels good to be old an yet still a teen....like wow...i will definitely cherish this....for youth's a stuff will not endure. yep twelfth night. the big Os come flooding back into my mind. but hey...i aint no afraid. i tried my best. and if any teacher ever taught me anything, i wld rmbr ms kelly for her big O lesson. she believed. and made me believe too. thanks.
i feel like im saying a gdbye speech but really it is isnt it? sort of. yeah so to erm mrs koh, to mrs doreen ang and ms heng...haha. speaking of ms heng! here wedding this year! i mean last year! 2004! june! yeah...a landmark...and ms kelly's party at cavendish. man...the year over like that. i rmbr i told glen, jared, ccc, zee and jonK on fri, "see you next year", when it was just next monday i meant...but man its true man its true ya know!!! oh yeah. i got my bags are packed im ready to go....so fast. a year distinguished by a stroke of the second hand. of the clock. or watch. or whatever. haha. whatever. thanks pple. thanks to myself. i have many new year resolutions.
no1. be nicer to others and to myself.
no2. exercise! like my parents are asking me to can u imagine...well i must...
no3. eat more! thats on top of exercising lest i remain a weakling. im skinny! skin and bones!
no4. learn to forgive and forget. its hard, but i know it feels good. its the best gift to yourself.
no5. to really really pay attention in class and be like ace student or smthing...for once. ahaha.yeah i shld be serious cuz i aint getting so lucky all the time.
no6. grow up. cut down on childish behaviour which im still full of. haha. but yeah, stay young at heart of course. wheeeee.
no6. learn to move on. not cry over spilt milk. whatever the odds are, be brave and not shy.
no7. be not nobody. wise words frm ms carlton.
no8. pick up two new skills. whatever they may be.
no9. start reading the papers and get acquainted with current affairs.
no10. take care of my health. like my eyes. musnt increase degree. if not damn i dont wanna rely on these specs no more man. if not i shall worsen my eyesight to 1000 than i can qualify for lasik. haha. nahhh....i plan to not fall sick that often too. which means no2 and no3 have to work first!
no11. read more to increase general knowledge and vocab command. im quite bad u know...

for now that's all. in a nutshell, be a better person. to myself and to others. very important. of course, to have as little regrets as possible! well, 2005, here i come!

the e awards

2004 has come and will be gone in several hours. What has made it so special on the global entertainment scale? The e Awards, in its first year, will honour the biggest and best in song, movie, and television. Due to the current tsunami tragedy, the awards has been scaled down to the following key categories. Winners have been highlighted in red and are fully prone to the biased jurisdiction of yours truly. Special mentions are contenders that have not been nominated, but without which, the year would not have been as unique.

Without further ado, the e Awards!

© 2004 edalamram

Best New Music Artist

DO THEY KNOW IT'S CHRISTMAS: Band Aid 20 (Various British Artists)

WITHOUT YOU: Kimberly Locke and Clay Aiken

TILT YA' HEAD BACK: Nelly and Christina Aguilera
OVER AND OVER: Nelly and Tim McGraw
 

 

 

AMERICAN IDOL 3

Yours truly once made a famous quote...haha. "You can never thank a person enough for what he has done for you, only reciprocate." As such, in true spirit of reciprocation, i hereby offer my 'plagiarized' blog entry, courtesy of charlie patrick adrian goh junyi.